MY JOURNEY TO GOD AND THE BIBLE
" I love those who loved Me and those who deligently seek Me will find me"
(Proverbs 8:7)
When I was young girl till the time I was growing up I love to pray. In my heart I always believe in GOD though I have not really experience HIM...but the most of my prayers were for the Virgin Mary as being a catholic then... . In my bad times and good times I never ceased praying the rosary but then in 1996. I started to asked what is it that I always felt empty and there's always a longing for something inside me. For something I cannot understand but deep inside I know its not here in this world...having a good job, material things, . ..cannot really make me happy ( I was in Bahrain then working in five star hotel as a front desk receptionist) At the end of the day I am empty., I know something is wrong and missing but I did not know what it is. ..as I always felt the emptiness inside me...at one time I was walking in the beach in Bahrain that I looked up and called the Father In Heaven . I called on HIM to show me what is it wrong with me, why I always feel lonely and what is it that I am missing that I dont know ...as Iam looking at the clouds I saw "The prayer of self dedication to the Lord Jesus Christ flashed in the sky" I ran back to my flat because I know whats that mean, (I have a small prayer book, that all the prayers I used to pray but I used to ignore one prayer there and that is the prayer of self dedication to Jesus Christ because of the part there that says "Your love and your wealth is enough for me, give me this Lord and I will ask for nothing more"...
That experienced of mine in Bahrain was the first revelation of me from GOD. I called the Father Almighty and the answer I got is the
"PRAYER OF SELF DEDICATION TO JESUS CHRIST"
During that time I still didnt get it well..Human as I am and no knowledge of all God's word from the Bible. I still went on my own ways, deciding and choosing things I was taught to believe when I was young. I did not like the prayer (Your love and your wealth is enough for me..give me these Lord and I asked for nothing more)as I thought He will take all the things that I had then though I am not drawn on things in this world. I would love to have my job and I want to keep them, although I asked for forgiveness. I continued loving the other things here on earth like praying to Virgin Mary , my job, family, fiends, more than loving the real GOD / Lord Jesus ( as I am not sure of Him yet and did not know by my heart yet that He is my real God) I loved GOD and I believe in HIM but its not easy to change the things that has been put in your mind and not knowing and hearing all the words of GOD in the Bible....but the breakthrough on my faith came in 1999, when the Lord Jesus pulled me to the cross after a Sunday mass...it was an unusual Sunday for me because after the mass I usually go to the chapel in Bahrain to pray the rosary, Wherein the right side of the chapel the statue of the Virgin Mary can be found and on the other side is the cross of the Lord Jesus.I was already going out then after praying the rosary but a strong force stopped me then. I dont know what happened I glance to the cross and my feet became so stiff that its pulling me to the cross and I walked going to the cross direction and when I am already infront of the cross... I saw the prayers on His feet...It was a prayer asking for help from the Lord. It says many times "Jesus help me" always at the end..seven wishes and asking the Lord so hard for help" I said to myself what is this prayer..its like a prayer of a person who has a very big problem...I did not know that this prayer is the prayer that I would seek and pray later that day, for two sraight weeks. Morning, afternoon and evening. These prayers helped me to cope...but as I am not really drawn to Jesus yet and I cannot understand Gods will in my life..I used to still decide on my own as I dont know how to seek His will and His ways.
"There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death"
(Proverbs 14:12)
GOD SAVE MY LIFE THROUGH THE BIBLE.
MY WEAKNESESS
In November 2003, I called the Father In heaven and surrendered all of myself to Him. I asked HIm to be the one to decide for me. It was the Lord Jesus who wakes me up and gave His commandments in (John 14:1-31) I am not so sure yet, if I will follow His words but then I remember when GOD saved my life in 1999 the Bible fell on my lap (I thank God always for that, everyday and for giving me a humble heart that I still remember to kneel and asked for forgiveness for what I was about to do) When I was kneeling and was already decided to end it all before I can stand up, the Bible fell on my lap. That time I didnt want to live anymore. I want to finish everything but God did not let it happened. When the bible fell..my eyes with tears caught at once the verse in the bible, that says:
"My son do not be discouraged when you are rebuked by the Lord nor be discouraged when you are rebuked by Him...For whom the Lord loves, He chastens and scourges every son whom He receives" If you endure chastening, God deals with you as with sons: for what is son is there whom a father does not chasten?
(Hebrews 12:5)
HEBREWS 12:5-29/(GODS REVELATION TO ME OF HEAVEN AND HELL
"For you have not come to the mountain that may be touched and that burned with fire, and to blackness and darkness and tempest"
(Hebrews 12:18)
"But you have come to Mount Zion and to the city of the living God, the heavenly Jerusalem, to an innumerable company of angels. To the general assembly and church of the firstborn who are registered in heaven, to God the judge of all, to the spirits of just men made perfect, To Jesus the Mediator of the new covenant and to the blood of sprinklings that speaks better things than that of Abel.
(Hebrews 12:22-24)
"Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us have grace, by which we may serve God acceptably with reverence and godly fear, "For our God is a consuming fire"
(Hebrews 12:28-29)
"GOD IS NOT TO BE MOCKED; WE SHOULD PAY HIM GREAT RESPECT , LOVE AND OBEDIENCE"
THE LORD MEANT EVERY WORD HE SAYS IN THE BIBLE AND TO HIM EVERY PROMISES IS TRUE AND FAITHFUL
December 2007
"Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you completely;
and may your whole spirit, soul and body be preserved blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.
He who calls you is faithful, who also will do it.
(1Thessalonians 5:23:24)
""God once more confirms to me that I am from Him in December 2007, that I am born for Him and to Him
I shall be back and He is already happy as I am already on my way back to Him"
GOD CHASTENED THOSE WHOM HE LOVED
The reason behind that chastening was revealed to me by the Lord: GOD LOVES ME and my Purpose in life, was revealed to me...Heaven and Hell was revealed to me...that day... GOD USED THE BIBLE TO SAVE MY LIFE, in Hebrews 12 :5-29) I get scared when God warned me about hell and revealing to me that He is also the God of consuming fire...and I know well even I didnt read the bible yet and dont know the words inside it, that evils really do exist. Since I was young I always thought that I am not normal because of many things that I cannot explain ...I can see strange and scary looking things...evils in their forms...even in human forms , especialy l when I was already 20 years old. I have encountered evil spirits and demons that even my co worker Rita saw it by her own eyes when a giant black shadow suddenly appeared infront of us and hit my hair but God did not permit the devil to take me to hell. On my lowest moment the Bible fell on my lap right after I asked GOD to forgive me on what I am about to do that time. My strength was put to test, but God/Our Lord Jesus is so great and so kind to save my soul from the pit. Now all I want is to serve God and tell of His wonders and great love even for someone like me who has not really deserve all the love and wonders He has shown me.
So when God warned me of a mountain that is burning with fire I am sure it is true and I get scared ...because of my encounter with the demons, even I am still here on earth. ..and I held on to GOD tightly then..the prayers below the cross in the chapel of Bahrain help me go through it.. In that prayers..The name of the LORD JESUS is invoke many, many times and truly GOD help me...The Lord Jesus helped me cope then...till I decided to go back to my own country on the Lords leading...
GLORY TO GOD/THE LORD JESUS!!!
Halleluiah
God's gift of love and trust:
by: Sally Richter